I was highly motivated when I started this blog way back in November. I had spent a great deal of time reading (okay, borderline obsessing over) others' blogs before I made the decision to create my own, and I had such high aspirations for it. It's not like I thought there was some "blog Fairy" that was going to write it for me...or did I? hmmm
I admit, motivation feels like a dying gene in my DNA. My intention is willing, but my body has a hard time getting there and it is starting to have a costly effect on my life and those around me.
Mornings are the worst. I am definitely not a morning person. It is not that I am really grumpy in the morning...I am just not, well, motivated. And my kids start school far too early in the morning for me to be slacking off. We are usually racing out the door, racing down the dirt road (we live in the country) and I'm telling the girls to make a run for their classes when we get to school (this week alone I had to get them tardy slips twice)! I guess I'm out of the running for mother of the year already and it's only February.
One act of motivation I have achieved (so far), is that in the last couple of months, I have begun to read my Bible in the mornings, and I am so blessed by that time spent with the Lord first thing. I admit some days I read just out of obedience, and since I'm going through a Read-through-the-Bible-in-a-year plan, sometimes I'm just not sure what I'm supposed to be getting out of those long lists in Chronicles of who was guarding what in which month. I continue to stick with it, though, because I know it is through this time spent with Him and His Word that I have the best chance of realizing the source of my motivation - my relationship with my Savior.
I've been looking for a couple of verses from Proverbs that I can put to memory to help "motivate" me when I want to just have intentions without actions (which is still much of the time, I have to admit). I have been reading through "The Message," a more plain-spoken translation of the Bible and here is what I've found:
A lazy life is an empty life
but "early to rise" gets the job done.
-Prov. 12:26
The path of lazy people is overgrown with briers;
the diligent walk down a smooth road.
-Prov. 15:19
Put God in charge of your work,
then what you've planned will take place.
-Prov. 16:3
I enjoy Proverbs so much because it contains practical words for every area of our life, whether child, adult, parent; in gaining wisdom, dealing with our money or relationships, or seeking motivation.
So, I am trying to give myself a "Motivation Make-Over." I know it will not happen overnight, not even in a week or maybe a month. But for the sake of my family and my own sanity, I am committing myself to be less "good intentions" and more "intentional," less "idea-oriented" and more "action-oriented." This is a tall order for me and I am a little scared that now that I've put this in print I really have to do this! =)
I'll keep you "posted" on my progress....
